God Called Me Today- a personal testimony
Have you ever had something so amazing happen to you, you couldn’t wait to tell someone else? Well that has happened to me. I have never shared my testimony before, but I honestly can’t keep this to myself for one more second-God Called Me Today.
Before I share how God Called Me I need to give you background history about myself so you can better understand me. I am going to start this message by confessing I am a sinning Christian. I don’t believe I am better than others, I try (try) not to judge, I respect that people have different faiths and I know I have many, many faults (my family will testify to this). It is because of my faults and my sins, that I appreciate my faith and find comfort in being a Christian. I am not here to convert anyone but I pray, regardless of your faith, that my story can offer some hope.
I have never gone out of my way to share openly about my faith other than I state I am a Christian, I do not have a ‘religion’.
“The difference between Christianity and every other faith in the world is that all other religions are about man trying to reach up to God. Christianity is about God reaching down to man.”
I have been a part of many different Christian religions during my life: Catholic, Methodist, Pentecostal, Baptist, Anglican and Non-denominational. I have always been in search for a church that stayed true to the teachings of the Bible, that walked the walk, and fed me spiritually. I may go months or even years without entering a building of worship, but not a day goes by in my life that I do not talk to my Father.
All of my life I have asked God for a calling and guidance for His will for my life. I believe several times during my life He has showed His calling but my own will took me down a different path, different from the plans that he had for me. As a teen, I would go to hear different evangelistic speakers who always had this amazing testimony, and after they shared their story, hundreds of people would give their lives to the Lord. I thought that is what it took to bring people to God, an amazing testimony. My life was boring at the time; no poverty, no drug abuse, no physical abuse, no near-death experience, no divorce, no hunger, no sickness, pretty much a sheltered, easy-going life. I didn’t think I had the experience or the story to compel others to give their life to Christ. Thirty years later I am happy to say (sarcasm intended), I finally have my testimony and experience. I had drifted so far from Gods path that I now have that amazing story and testimony to share with those who want to hear (although most would never believe) it. This way of thinking is NOT recommended or for the faint of heart. Do it right the first time, stick with God’s plan- He knows what He’s doing.
Fast forward a couple of decades- Almost 8 years ago we went through some life-altering situations and decided to change our course of life. We gave up drinking, smoking, processed foods (for the most part- I am still human), started exercising, dove head first into the homesteading lifestyle and worked hard on being self-sufficient and environmentally conscious. We began to take responsibility for our actions, responsibility for our health, and responsibility to our planet. I started teaching workshops encouraging (and hopefully inspiring) others to do the same. I began writing a blog, books, webinars and public speaking. Started a 4-H program in my town, became president of a local herb gardening club, and volunteer serving the community whenever I can. About one year ago I started a non-profit corporation. We sell local produce, all natural products, farm-fresh eggs and deliver it to people’s homes. With the proceeds we are able to provide fresh produce to those in need in our community (about 20-150 local residents per week). At this point, I was very satisfied with the new direction our life was going, but I still felt like I was supposed to do something bigger, so I continued to pray for direction every day.
This business (the produce delivery) was never in my five year plan. I never dreamed of it, I didn’t look for it and no one ever talked to me about a business similar to it. It is not funded by anyone other than us and how we survive from week to week on what little we make has always been a mystery to me. I tell everyone who ask me why I am doing it, “this is Gods business, not mine- I just work here and He pays the bills”.
In life, wherever there is good there is also bad. I can have every good intention under the sun, a pure heart, give my last dime, my last piece of bread, my last bit of knowledge, my last breath, and there will ALWAYS be someone to complain about it and try to stop or discourage me. This reality hurts me to the core, it breaks my spirit and my heart and sometimes I find it hard to press forward. When I am faced with this pain, I often try to do it alone and I forget the battle is not mine to fight and I don’t have to go it alone, there is a greater power that I believe in that can win the battle for me.
God Called Me
This is where I am today- I am in the middle of fighting for something I believe in, our right to live. I am fighting our county, the government and society for our right to use our land so we can provide for our family and live a sustainable lifestyle. But this situation is bigger than just me, I am fighting for everyone, because everyone deserves this freedom. It is not in my spirit or in the fiber of my being to give up or lie down, however, I am in uncharted territory. Our county is trying to take away our right to grow food, use our own land and live a sustainable life. They have passed laws that remove our Constitutional rights and the public is not aware. I have never practiced law, I have never studied our rights, I have not read our Constitution since high school, I have very little understanding for procedure, and to make it harder, I did not have my husband’s support. He was worried my actions and speaking up would cause us to lose everything. It was in the middle of this sense of this weight on my shoulders that I became overwhelmed with fear, my heart started pounding, I became nervous, palms were sweaty, and my head filled with doubt and worry. I was on the computer typing a message to a man who was offering me advice and I had just confessed to him I was scared and couldn’t do ‘this’. Just then, my phone rang.
God Called Me– I didn’t recognize the number, it was long distance. I almost didn’t answer it because of everything that was going on, but I did. On the other end of the line was a woman with an accent asking me if I shipped my produce. This question caught me completely off guard because I have closed my business for the winter and removed it from my website. I thought it was a trap because I know that selling produce across state lines is against the law, and the local government is in every part of my personal life at the moment. I politely told her that I do not ship and I was closed for business. As she was getting ready to say goodbye she asked if she could pray for me.
She said she didn’t know how she got my number or why she was calling me but she knew God wanted her to and He needed to tell me not to fear and that the battle was His. Unable to speak and in shock, I mumbled approval to receive prayer. As this woman prayed for me, I wept and sobbed. With each tear that fell, the fear and doubt that just moments before was so heavy that the weight was almost unbearable, had left my head and heart.
I cannot begin to describe this feeling, the awe and amazement that I felt knowing that God cares about me and what I am going through. That he sent this angel to me, to give me His message. He had my number.
Luke 12:6-7 Are not five sparrows sold for two cents? Yet not one of them is forgotten before God. 7“Indeed, the very hairs of your head are all numbered. Do not fear; you are more valuable than many sparrows.
Never in my life have I had a personal experience like this. I know God has healed me, provided for me, protected me, and I always feel His love, but never have I had verbal confirmation. Never has He openly sent one of His messengers to me in a way I would recognize.
It turned out this amazing woman is a missionary and is currently located in South Florida (I am in SC). She gave me scripture to hold on to (Hebrews 4:12) and even sang me a gospel song. God had my number and He called me through this beautiful child.
Hebrews 4:12 For the word of God is alive and active. Sharper than any double-edged sword, it penetrates even to dividing soul and spirit, joints and marrow; it judges the thoughts and attitudes of the heart.
As humans, faith is hard. Faith may be one of the hardest things that is ever asked of us. Faith is believing in a God we cannot see, touch, hear or smell. We rely on all of these senses to tell us that something is real and that we can believe it exists. Now throw in we have to believe in miracles- something that can never be proven by science and to top it off, the only thing that we have to guide us is a book that was written over 3,000 years ago!
But that is what we are called to do. To believe in a God you cannot see, to stand on His word and trust in His promises to deliver miracles.
Remember earlier when I said where there is good, there is also bad? There will always be those that will try to discredit your faith, make fun of you, fill your head with doubt. You might even raise the doubt yourself because your prayers were not answered in a way that you wanted. When I feel like that, I am reminded of this story:
Me: God, can I ask You a question?
Me: Promise You won’t get mad
God: I promise
Me: Why did You let so much stuff happen to me today?
God: What do you mean?
Me: Well, I woke up late
Me: My car took forever to start
Me: at lunch they made my sandwich wrong & I had to wait
Me: On the way home, my phone went DEAD, just as I picked up a call
Me: And on top of it all off, when I got home ~I just wanted to soak my feet in my new foot massager & relax. BUT it wouldn’t work!!! Nothing went right today! Why did You do that?
God: Let me see, the death angel was at your bed this morning & I had to send one of My Angels to battle him for your life. I let you sleep through that
Me (humbled): OH
GOD: I didn’t let your car start because there was a drunk driver on your route that would have hit you if you were on the road.
Me: (ashamed) God: The first person who made your sandwich
today was sick & I didn’t want you to catch what they have, I knew you couldn’t afford to miss work.
Me (embarrassed): okay
God: Your phone went dead because the person that was calling was going to give false witness about what you said on that call, I didn’t even let you talk to them so you would be covered.
Me (softly): I see God
God: Oh and that foot massager, it had a shortage that was going to knock out all of the power in your house tonight. I didn’t think you wanted to be in the dark.
Me: I’m Sorry God
God: Don’t be sorry, just learn to Trust Me…. in All things, the good & the bad.
Me: I will trust You.
God: And don’t doubt that My plan for your day is Always Better than your plan.
Me: I won’t God. And let me just tell you God, Thank You for everything today.
God: You’re welcome child. It was just another day being your God and I Love looking after My children.